1) Work sucks!
When I break this comment down I see what I am doing. I am "MAKING" work suck!
SO I decided to use a different tone the rest of the day.
"Work is tough, what can I do each day to make it work for me?"
I am now working on a list of ideas that I want to put into use for the next 3 weeks. I want to see if this helps my issues.
2) My mental attitude has be lax lately!
Breaking this down, I think there are many issues that I KNOW are the reasons.
1) Sphere going down, attitudes flaring
2)Friends ("") not wanting to hear what I have to say because they were in the dump as well.
3)Last week it was not feeling well towards the end of the week after making it known I was going to have a great week in regards to workouts.
4) Lack of motivation to improve ME as a whole -vs- just trying to impress others with words on a blog.
SO, I take a step back and think. What do "I" want?
(1) I like some of the stories on the sphere, I just wonder if that is what it was designed for. I posted a while back I didn't feel like the support was there like it used to be...IE: Mission 1 May of 2009.
Did I get some serious flack there!
(2) Friends or so thought....Well, If I ignore them like they do to me, maybe they will come around. Funny, I haven't talked to one in over 2 weeks. All he ever does is say I've got it so good and his life is in shambles...Well who put it there? (HE DID) I continue to hit the ignore button on this one. I am in no mood to listen to his blithering!
(3) Believe it or not I am still feeling a disconnect in my head. (FOGGY) I do not know the reason. I feel better, but not all there. (it's a wonder I can even write all this)
I did do some cardio to get the heart rate up as well as get a good sweat going. Two weeks to go on this mission and then I'm done with Muscle. Back to basic training with more cardio. Gotta lose the fat!
(4) One of the reasons I decided to blog here as well. I need to step away and get back to what I need. A core of people that support me and I them to a similar journey.
I will still go on the sphere, just not to the extent that I was. There are some that I still support because they asked for it. I won't give up on them.
Interesting fact: of the 6 people in my team during Mission 1 there are 2 left. Myself and Elaine. Elaine has taken herself to the next level in my opinion. Way out of my league(not that I'm in a league) She rocks! (I need determination like that)
So there you have it. Blog #2 in the books.
Time to read some more HBS and try to digest it!
Oh and if you haven't read Tom's blog: go read it.....I am his distant relative, I just know it!
Great blog Todd. Not much support over there anymore.
ReplyDeleteVery soon you will something way more powerful than the Sphere - so hang on - and keep on -what's a new term for shredding? ...hmmm ...I have to think about that one for awhile.
and turn off that word verify box please...
ReplyDeleteIt works!
ReplyDeleteGreat blog, Todd! I love your honesty. It's important to say how you feel. The Sphere is not the same. Perhaps some of us are growing out of it, or just being attracted to a new direction. One thing I have found difficult there, is that while the positive pressure is great, I feel sometimes like it's GO, GO, GO and SUCCEED or you feel like a bit of a failure. That doesn't help. I totally admire and respect Elaine, too. She is amazing. But her journey is her own. Her resolve is unbelievable, but not realistic for all of us at this moment. Certainly not for me, anyway.
ReplyDeleteYou are doing great. It is a journey that never ends. The most important thing is not to give up regardless of other people, circumstances, whatever. Everything you need is already within you. It's there! find it and use it!
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Not to SS bash but no its not the same. It used to be truly positive comments and excitement to see what folks have done. Truly its just another Body building site which is ironic given it was designed not to be.
ReplyDeleteIts tough when work is a stress point but choosing your attitude can help.How would u feel if you did not have it? We can always make things better.
This other fellow sounds like a person in your life not a friend, move on.
Hope the fog clears and if not get it checked.
This begins and ends with you so stepping back and getting what you need sounds like the smartest thing you could do.
Thanks for the share.
Todd - I see so much of myself in your blogs that we must definitely be related! :)
ReplyDeleteI too have had a lot of disappointments in the "friend" camp recently, so I know how you feel - It's too easy to let your expectations of others drag you down, especially if you use your own standards as a benchmark. Best thing to do is to train yourself to have no expectations - that way you will always be pleasantly surprised! :)